Re: Chance I didn't take
Posted: Sat Jan 31, 2026 7:13 am
Hmm... reading your face, maybe? It sounds like you were watching with interest because it was an unusual spectacle for you, but that the idea of doing it yourself didn't even enter your mind until your mom suggested it.Yarua wrote: Fri Jan 30, 2026 3:17 pm Oh my... I actually like, woah was I staring too much. I think i genuinely was. I was there with cousins before, when they were dressed, I stayed with them throughout... Omg was that why... Ofc in my mind I was thinking that looks like fun, but more like watching a someone do a 360 backflip. Did she read my mind or my face...
Unless part of you actually kind of did want to join them, and your mom read your mind down to the subconscious...?
You've given me some interesting things to think about.What about you, In that moment if you did actually do it,
Do you think about it as a chance you didn't take? Think about questions like-
how would your rest of day go if you did it?
Anything you would have liked to try afterwards?
If you would have done it, would you suggest your sister to follow the suit? Or if she did it first?
In the moment, I wasn't thinking about it as a chance I didn't take, or at least not consciously. There was actually something embarrassing about it for me, knowing that my sister was getting a full view of what a naked boy looks like, but not vice-versa. But even as I felt slightly embarrassed about it, it was still also interesting. The kind of thing where you can't quite look away and pretend it's not there.
I think I was wearing swim trunks and a shirt, plus socks and shoes, so joining the boy would have required me to strip off a lot...
If I'd done it, I honestly don't know whether I'd have suggested my siblings do it too. I might've been too shy about suggesting it to them. Or I might've actually suggested it because I was too shy to do it by myself. Don't know what my mom would've thought. She didn't seem to care about us being around the naked boy, but she may have had something to say if we'd gotten naked, too.
Had my sister been a little younger, it could have been in character for her to strip by her own initiative. If that had happened, I don't think I would have followed suit.
Nowadays, when I remember the event, I can actually think of it as a "chance not taken"... kind of. I still can't really imagine myself actually doing it back then. But in the following few years, as my thinking shifted, I got to a point where I might've been legitimately interested in trying it. (By that time, I was probably a bit too old to easily get away with it, though.) So in a slightly different world, it could have been a legitimate chance that I didn't take.
If I'd done it, I think the rest of the day would have seen me feeling a weird mix of embarrassment and amazement. As in, "Wow, did I actually do that? Should I have done that?" And it also would have depended on the beach crowd. That day, there weren't many other people on the beach, so embarrassment might have been somewhat minimal. But on the other extreme, if I'd ended up spending time that way with girls my age who were wearing swimsuits, that may have inspired another complicated mix of feelings in me. (Or, if they also got naked... then yet another, also complicated mix of feelings.) In any case, at the end of it, I think some part of me would have secretly yearned to try it again sometime, even if that was difficult to admit to myself.
When you ask about things I would've liked to try afterwards, I don't know if you mean things I could've done while still at the beach, or completely different things in other settings. If we're still talking about the beach, then I can think of a few things: going for a fully naked dip in the ocean, feeling sand on parts of my body that are usually covered by clothes, and running around aimlessly. Maybe also just casually roaming the whole beach to search for sea glass.