Moonshine+CC21 wrote: Tue Apr 28, 2026 2:43 pm
I write since well I want to connect with like minded people. I mean discussions like this don't happen normally do they and if you bring it up what are the chances they'll be interested. But places like here, in communities like this sharing stories with what we are interested in can give us opportunities to talk about this stuff with others and maybe even share stories from the past which may explain why you like that sort of thing. So for me pantsing. I have many stories from the past. Some influencing the stories I write especially my characters.
Also it's an outlet innit. Used to have one when I was younger either doing it to friends who didn't mind, watching it happen, or ends up happening to me. Eventually as I grew up I lost that outlet but still interested in it and since there's not many stories that satisfy that interest I decided to write them myself
for me it was multiple instances actually if i think of embrassing events.
1. i was taking a bath but the bathroom door wouldn't close fully (village), and i observed my aunt watching me from the narrow gap opening. i felt embrassed but kept silent because i didn't want her to know that i know she is watching.
2. i was forced to bath outdoor because i got chicken pox and i didn't bath for few days continously. when i got well, i was forced to bath outdoor backyard. when i asked why, my mom said she can wash me properly due to more space and since our bathroom was small, she can't bath me. i was anyways bathing myself at that age but since i needed very clean bath, she insisted she bathing me . but that's when our maid came to wash dishes in backyard. i cried and asked her to leave but she didn't . i wanted to run but my mother didn't let me. i cried for days after this.
3. forgot towel ones and my mother lied that there was no one at home. i came out to see that she lied. i mentioned it in one of the story i wrotr recently .
4. one day, a neighbor girl i had crush on came our home to play with us. usually my mother used to give me clothes after i finish my bath when i call her. i usually keep towel with me after the day she lied to me. plus my father used to roam in towel after bath like some manly person, strong and build. idk why i did it, but i tried the same. i came out with just towel. my mother was shocked seeing me brave. taking towel to bathroom became a habit but i never actually learnt to tie towel properly. but immitating my farher, i didn't really hold the towel. just was talking to them and they were also casual. therr were 2 girls my exact age. and 3rd and 4th girk would be my mother and sister. me casually talking on what to play after this, idk if my mother understood but it was pretty obvious i had crush. but right then, during the talk, my towel slipped and i was noy every quick to pick it up nor hold. so, they did watch me and saw me again trying to tie in front of them. but then my mother called me and gave me my clothes. they laughed when i came back and i didn't know what to say.
5. most humilating because i was 8th grade. it was my uncles marriage. was in village. everyone busy gettinf ready but limited with bathroom. my mother who knows, i am shy, but knew i can handle bathing in underwear, asked her younger brother to bath me along with his kids. their kids were hardly 1grade. they stripped and were ready to take bath openly on the side of a road which had any one on that muddy, villagr roads traveller to watch, or anyone in the house i stay could watch. i stripped to underwear. but then my uncle said, don't be shy and remove that also. u r just a kid. i said, no and insisted. i told i never usually do that. he got angry, said no time for ur nonsense and said seriously to remove. i didn't . it was so tense, more of my cousins who are my age came around to see what was going. my uncle gave me a slap but i still didn't but started crying. he said stop crying like a girl. be a man and remove. i still didn't but he forced pulled it all off. since i was crying, no one laughed. but everyone simply stared. my cousin sisters later on tried to set my crying mood after bath saying it is ok for boys but i was not stopping. out if all girls, there is this one cousin who is 2 years older than me, said what's so big deal. everyone saw u bathing, why u ashamed of it, we all bath every day. did u do anything that we all don't . i didn't get her point but i didn't talk. i lived that week just crying.
8. another incident with a trip, and three cars lights focused on me while i am naked. u can read on another story i wrote
7. at this age, i think i understood i was into enf, cfnm but had fear to show it directly. i got sick when i was in 10th. i had to get an injection. a beautiful nurse was asked to do it on my butt. i went but i told her, put it in hand, and not on butt. she said, it's suppose to be on butt. no big deal. just lay down. she tried to lower my pant not even much and was about to put it but i pulled it up (literally it was not much but i felt embrassed and pulled it all ip before her injection she pulled it just slightly again but i pulled it and said, please give on hand. it is easier. but then this nurse got pissed off she pulled almost entire butt and warned me, if u pull it again, i will make u remove entire pant. that's when i got my first boner for this kink. thise words of pulling entire pants had some sense of turn on.did i tell u that the door was also open and people who go around could see though i kept checking who is passung and trying to cover when i anticipated someone coming, i would cover up
8. believe it or not, ever since my 11th grade, i wanted to experience it. so, i picked a street away from home. where no one knows me. i got a very loose shorts, it was summer, i removes my shirt and was walking judt with my loose shorts. those were so loose that just with a slight jump, it would fall off entirely. i was walking while holding cycle i had. i didn't know it was bad and i could get in trouble. but there was some college lady. propably 4 years older than me. i was actually tensed. by then, i have already make my shorts fall in front of many stranger ladies and idk, i got turned on but i can't get in front of them. idk how i managed but no one were able to get hold of me ones they saw me naked, i would simply get on cycle naked and escape. but then this college lady came unexpected. i was fully covered with shorts and i don't think she had any reason to stop me. but she came in my direction and was about to ask me direction to some place (i didn't know, i thought she is coming closer to catch me). so, my response, i fastly kept my leg on the paddle of my cycle, mobile in one hand (one of the nokia symbian touch screen mobile just to mention the time this happened ), loose shorts around my waist, shirt just kept over the back seat of my cycle. but in panic, first my short came down, literally it fell, i tripped, fell over my cycle, while being entirely naked, she came to lift me up immediately but i was naked, scared, and caught, saw my mobile screen broken (ultra sad because it was new), she didn't either think i did it on purpose or she liked what she just saw. she laughed and couldn't stop having a smile. she lifted me up and said, be careful. my mind running different emotions at ones and she simply smiled and said be careful. i was hurt, bleeding , but i didn't feel pain at all with all other emotions. she asked if i was hurt and started checking but by then, i started pulling my shorts up. i honestly felt like she would think i was a creep but the way she treated me was like a cute brother. that was my first and lsst time i dared to do it outdoor
9. i got hooked with this i tried many apps online though now. chatliv if anyone used it, i used to role play accidents. but ig it was all limited until (mostly got into enf and cfnm videos)
10. when i got my first job, i was at a rented place where the maid would be included in the rent. i went there day 1 and didn't know rules. i took bath and decided to be naked for the day. i made sure i locked every door, closed every window. i then slept nicely because i travelled to the place from different state. i woke up to my sisters call. i knew everything is locked. so, i came out to hall. walked back and forth, calm and slow. i have ADHD and i have high focus. so, i was just focused on call for 10 or more mins. didn't even notice that i was not alone in hall. there was a maid , sitting on floor, directly in the direction i was walking . i was a fool not to notice it or my mind simply thought it was some object . until the object moved. idk, what she thought of just sitting and watching for 10 mins. just when she stood up, i noticed her. no next thought. i simply ran back to my bedroom and locked like i seen ghost. she then came and knocked the door. i didn't answer for few things. i didn't knkw her langauge. 2ndly, obviously u know.
11. after that, i talked to owner saying i didn't like the place. he agreed to payback my deposite. i changed to different room but this time, i knew that maids also have keys with them. so, i tried to redo it with the new maid. not like my embrassjng naked walk without knowing . but i actually slept naked every day and my room door never locked. ideally she should open the door to find me naked sleeping. but i was too scared to do it thinking she might complain. so, i didn't actually make it happen despite like that even when i tried many times. when i hear her entering house, i simply wear underwear or something or lock my room door the last min. but then one day, i took shower and went from bathroom to my room in just towel, i saw her just entering. she saw me in towel. i simply went to my closet and took underwear. (i didn't close the bedroom door). i saw her peaking. she must have not seen anything but i felt she was interested and i should dare that sleeping wala. ) but fate, corona happened , she stopped working in my house, i simply was searching some other of fun.
and interestinly that was the year i first got into reading because i felt videos or images were getting all repeativie and no more fun. i did read some stories in deviantart site back then and also contributed to those but never felt enough but then i found asstr site in 2020 around. after reading alot for so long, i even found girlspns, thisvid for videos , sensitiveinfo.com for movie scenes, and maybe around or little earlier , even started playing nsfw game, read manges with this theme, manwha, foreign movies eith enf, enm content, and basically my brain is trained on multiple material over years.
12. recently the finally, i went to nt sisters place she lives in 2bhk. so, her husband and she lives in a room and i lived in this guest bedroom. they use their own bathroom. i use bathroom.in my room . they ones both went to ofc and and came in afternoon. i usually don't go out much. i simply stayed home that entire day, playing games, studying something. then i went for bath. they both arrived almost at same time. my brother jn law went for bath. my sister, didn't even knock but opened the bathroom door. honestly it was noy intentional . it just happened because i thought no point in closing when i am alone. they had the key and they came. even when, my sister never uses bathroom in my room.
now this is my half of my embrassing life. there is another part of embrassement. maybe i missed few things in between but 100% true. every bit of it.
there were some scenarios like an aunt, during a stay in village, again i was occupying bathroom for bath but she wanted ti use it too same time. she said, u r boy, u should bath outside itself. maybe she meant with underwear becauss i must have been 15 around then.
there was few more but not worth mentioning because it's not in real world i simply played truth or dare with a girl i found online during corona. we both were into both enf and cfnm. she used ti dare ne to go out naked at night, or dance naked and send video, play guitar whike naked sort of dares. i did something simialr to her as well but mine were more embrassing though she did it. we both did that for a month, but then she rejected when i proposed, she said she needed someone normal. i got rejected from girls for various reasons. one girl even rejected me because my tinder app hairstyle was not same as the one i had when i met her, and some girl rejected me saying i am too cute. problem with me is never the start, even though we never become couple or do anything physical, i tend to ruin it ones i open my mouth. i talk a lot. i talk on various topics, starting from science till kinks to music to art. ones the girls get to know me, they leave and I am not bad at all. when i ask them, they say it that i am too good and they don't deseve me. am i getting fooled? who rejects when they say i am too cute or too romantic or, i am mr. perfect but some also say i am weird. out of all, rejecting for hairstyke seens most normal. anyways , it is good they reject me. they clearly are smart to see our values don't match which is good for both of us.
right now, i am lost, alone, sad, and feels that i can never find the sort of bond that i deeply seek.not that i am bad looking to find love. I get approached by girls sometimes and they consider me as good looking, well behaved and good person but i reject myself before they do. thinking they wouldn't like me. A girl proposed me (i was not interested anyways) but i also felt like she didn't like me too. If she did like me the way i want, then i would figure out by the way she treats me. She saw me as someone of really high standard and Mr.perfect. i hated that image of me and when people like me for something like that where i never aim to become someone but rather just be myself, someone who lives in present and loves to do or learn things because it's simply fun. I wish someone falls for my michevious, playful, free sprited part of me because that is what i am usually. The stories i write sometimes makes me realise the sort of love i am seeking.
) A girl or a boy, when they love another person not for any particular reason but still.enjoys every second of their company, is it even possible? If yes, why am i not finding it? Anyways, i am not asking answers to those questions. I simply want to understand, is everyone similar to me? Do they write stories to express some sort of feeling that they think is missing in their life?
. now girls don't value looks anymore and guys have to put efforts to get their attention. i find it hard simply.